A brush with life
A day in adulthood

A helpless follower

A man draped in tattered clothes

After dark

An axe on Keats

And can't I mould my future

And how the dreams fall

Being in love

Bereft of success

Between despair and hope

Come back soon
Devil and his counterpart

Devour

Engineers

Epitaph

Farewell

Farewell from the circle of friends

Fast moves the time

Femina

Finding Estella again

Freedom came cheap

From where to nowhere

Fulfillment

Harvest

Heart in Everest

Heaven to hell and back again

HOME

How he lies amid his ruins, and you smile

How I missed the beauty

I want to be your nosering
I weave a dream
I wonder
Insomnia

Kiss from a rose

Land's end

Leeches in my soul

Letter from battlefield

Looking back

Losing everything

Love and compromise

Love in modern times

Madonna

My abode among the clouds

My beloved

Naga Sadhu goes digital

Nevertheless I tried

Ode

On St. Valentine

On visiting an old place

Papa dear

Rancour

Reminiscences from my graveyard

Stranger at the tavern

Suspended animation

Tears, idle tears

Telephone call to my beloved

Tell her I am dead

Termination

That passed, this also may

The blissful illusion

The breathless seashore

The bride

The Buddha smiled, but he died

The cigarette butt, the mosquito blood

The day after the crossing

The desert princess

The dipping sun

The eve of St. Valentine

The frozen wet damsel

The last word

The pen and the paper

The phoenix

The pimp

The silence spoke so much

The soldier's lament

The tear left a trail

The world beyond innocence

They tell me I am mad

Thoughts of tomorrow

Titanic

To hug her close or leave her alone

Today I die

Vain is the wish to be born again

Vanished figure

Walking through the streets of a country deprived

When loss pains no more

Where the grass in not painted green

Which is better?

Wild nights
You don't ask

You see why I died

 

Priyatu's World > Poetry>  The cigarette butt, the mosquito blood

The cigarette butt, the mosquito blood

The aged tree, once blooming,
Now lies decrepit, old, stale,
Barren, broken- but not quite dead.
And every year the cold snatches
The last shivering leaves.


The aged parents, once earning,
Now lie exhausted, wrinkled,
Shorn of life- but not quite dead.
And everyday the hundred curses
Snatch the last breaths away.


The shattered marriage, once satiating,
Now lie suffocated, crumpled,
Unpromising, broken- but not quite dead.
And each moment the waiting seconds
Sound a further death knoll.


The butt of a cigarette,
The desire clinging to the heart.
Like a squashed mosquito’s blood-
Throw the butt away, wash the blood.
-2\12\99,Calcutta-63

COMMENTS :

It would surprise most that this was to (and is) a love poem, albeit sad and hopeless. It talks of a hopeless love affair that exists out of a shoddy reverence to a shared past and the reluctance to snap the ties, only to escape the feeling of guilt of killing. But the mosquito is already dead. Wash the blood away.

The poem is mainly a product of three haunting images. The first is the latest and the least haunting, the last is the earliest and the most haunting- because it most closely resembles the original motive. Everything else, i.e. the baggage was acquired while writing.

This reluctance to snap the ties is inherently Oriental. The fatalist philosophy to which most people here pay subscription, induces us to believe that whatever happens happens with a higher sanction, and as such we are expected to pay reverence to this arrangement, however uncomfortable or unfortunate. Marriages are said to be made in heaven, but divorces are made on earth only. Unfortunately for the Oriental this snapping of ties is culturally and philosophically taboo (though not legally), and thus he/she is forced to travel in a rickety vehicle.

 

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Nevertheless I tried
Stranger at the tavern
Suspended animation
Tell her I am dead
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